Sya Ang May Sala

I used to be a "Smiling Face" when I was young. Whenever I see someone familiar, I smile at him/her, and it felt nice whenever they smile back. That was when I was in elementary, not until 5th grade. You know there are these "bitches", "cool", "genius", "IT students" in every classroom. I was walking on the pathway from girls cr back to our classroom, I saw my classmate in 4th grade. I gave her a nice smile but received a rather disappointing and disheartening reply, "Ang ganda ng ngiti mo ah?" (what a nice smile?) in a very sarcastic and mocking way. I was so embarrassed. She was smirking as she walked passed me. She was with her friend. And I was with mine. My friend might've felt bad for me at that time but just ignored it and acted as if nothing happened. And because of that I am no longer the used to be "Smiling Face" when I was young. I was scared that people might do the same as what this bitch classmate of mine did. Now I'm known for being a snob and not-to-care-at-all girl.

The Passing of A Good Mother...

A month ago my whole family and I visited my sister's in-laws. Her mother-in-law was sick and diagnosed with Liver Cirrhosis. (FYI: one of our church mates died from that illness a month after her diagnosis) Nanay (as how I and my siblings were used to call her) was not the usual all-around mother by the time we reached their house in Pagbilao, Quezon. She was distinctively quiet and calm and unusually laid back. As how I can remember her, she would always clean my sister's room, where she used to stay whenever we pay them a visit. You might think that she's a snob if you don't know her, but she's really nice and thoughtful. She's the typical housewife. Taking care of the house, the kids and her husband. But, despite all that, she'd never forget her beauty regime, her nails and her makeup which I admire of her deeply. She wasn't able to come with us in the swimming pool because she visited her doctor. The next morning, she complains of her body pains, specifically, her tummy. She said it was so painful. We never told her that our church mate died of the same illness. We prayed for her. She prayed for herself as well. I will never forget those remarkable words that she said in her prayer, "Lord, we all know that You are in control of everything. You know better than anyone of us, You will never leave us nor forsake us. Everything happens for a reason and even for the betterment of us here. But please God, if You may, please don't let me die yet. Not for me, but for my children and family. They need me. Amen" these words touched my heart so deeply that I couldn't hold my tears back. She meant those words and wanted to live not for herself, but for her loved ones. Last Friday, June 24, my sister said she'd go visit her mother-in-law. We called her brother-in-law and asked if she's arrived, he said no. He called us back and told us that her mom, nanay, was looking for her already. We told him that she's already gone there last Friday. We were worried for whatever might have happened to her. We finally learned that she stayed at her boyfriend's house for the night because it was raining so hard. And on Saturday, there was no bus going to Quezon, she said. I woke up Sunday morning, around 6 o'clock, my brother was talking to someone on the phone, with disbelief on his face. Nanay was gone. He was talking on the phone with my sister's brother-in-law, still looking for my sister. I've been calling my sister since Friday night but she's not answering the phone anymore, until Sunday morning. His brother-in-law finally talked with her and told her the devastating news. She went to the bus terminal right away, accidentally leaving her phone behind. Miraculously there was a bus. Look at that! As much as I want to pay Nanay a visit, for the last time, I can't. I was hoping that her burial would be on weekends so that I can attend, but they'd do it on Friday.
And to Nanay, thank you for the support and the guidance that you have given, not only to my sister, but for the good of our whole family. We thank God for giving my sister the best mother-in-law she'll ever have. Rest now, for God loves you so much. We will miss you.

Lunar Eclipse

I just thought I should share it in here, did you see this? I didn't know I've missed this much...enjoy!

http://kitsunebryne.tumblr.com/post/6659082482/soooooo-cool-i-didnt-know-what-i-missed-until-i

Happy Father's Day Papa Gas!

It's 12:43AM as of now, and it's June 19, Happy Father's Day. I thought I'd be the one greeting the most special and important guy in my life, my father, Papa...:D Happy Father's Day, 'Pa. Well, you know, it's really hard to laugh on your corny jokes, but like what they say, the funniest jokes are the corny ones, but I guess, yours are exceptional, hahahaha...kidding aside, you've always been so silent and quite a good listener to our blabber mouth. And sometimes, we can be unreasonably nonsense. But I admire your patience. No matter how irritating, annoying and terrible we get, you must be the person with the longest patience I know. We are the luckiest kids in the whole wide world for having you as a dad! I don't think anyone could've done it any better that you do. We soooo uber love you! <3 Happy Father's Day!

Reel or Real?

real or reel?

…if this is true, then I don’t think girls should worry. But there’s one more thing I guess we should must be worried about, ‘gays’. Not only can they be stolen by gays but also your ‘prospects’ be gays themselves..but that’s not the topic. hehe.

I wrote this blog to let you guys know that true loves waits. You may find this confusing because I’d be contradicting myself at times. Well, that’s because, you see, I’m NBSB. I don’t know what’s wrong, nobody tells me. I’ve had have crushes, a couple or two. May it be for real or celebrities, or even anime characters. Most especially when I was in elementary. I started liking this boy when we were in 2nd grade. He was so nice back then. We were seat mates. He would let me copy his homework, he’d let me share and exchange snacks, and most of all, he never bullied me. That’s why I liked him. Well, he made me feel he likes me, too, that’s why. My cousin, who was my classmate too, told me that maybe he likes me. I got more confident. But I was very young back then. I was about 8 or 9? not sure. Then we finished 2nd grade, moved up to the 3rd, 4th until highschool. I wasn’t expecting it. I still like him, but not as much as I did back in 2nd grade. I was 4th year highschool and my aunt was a teacher. She put me in her advisory class and told me who I want to be classmates with. I saw the students’ list. And this very nice cousin of mine told my aunt that I have a crush with this certain boy. My aunt did. He put him in our class. I panicked. Well, not that I’m shy or guilty or anything, hahaha. To make the story short. It was our first day. (warning: Don’t expect for a happy ending) My very good aunt arranged our seats and made us seat mates, again, after about 8 years. Grateful because my aunt didn’t make it obvious she knows something. So we were seatmates. We catch up. Chatted like it was nothing to me. Then the next subject came, English. Not to boast but, I was good at it. Apparently, he’s not. We had a quiz and our score will indicate our seat. To my disappointment, he copied, and I let him, my answers. Almost, because I got the perfect score and he got one mistake. Obviously, we’re seatmates again. But I got turned off. He cheated, my letting him is not the point. But that’s not the only turning off situation. He always asks for a pad from me whenever there’s a quiz or exam, what’s worse is that, he also asks for his friend. How thick-faced can he get? I’ve been thinking, what happened to him? What happened to the kind boy I met 8 years ago? Well, people change, so does the feeling. My liking to him disappeared. I didn’t hate him, more of annoyed. Maybe he already knew that I liked him that’s why he’s taking advantage of me. He’s got a girlfriend then, but I think he’s married now because I saw his picture with a baby, and lots of pictures with this girl. Anyway, I don’t care anymore. Now I’m sure that what I felt for him was reel. Because if it’s not, maybe I am still head over heels for him until now, after those rudeness.

True love waits? yes. Because I don’t think we have a choice.

Animal Welfare

@ABSCBNfan just tweeted this disturbing page in twitter that displays a hanged-clipped dog on a laundry line. Here is the link:
http://t.co/oj6bNCk

anyway, don't you think it's just sick for someone to do something like this especially to helpless creatures? let alone your own pet? I mean, pets are to be cared for not to be tortured, correct me if I'm wrong. I'm not really an animal lover but, this is not right. Well, someone must do something. There is someone I know who supports his child with this "violent behavior". He'd buy him a "pet" may it be a bird, fish, hamster, lizards or even a dog. At first you'd think the boy is sweet, feeding his "pet" bathing, and even playing with it. But after a few days, you'll notice that the "pet" is getting thinner and thinner, weaker and weaker, and you'll wonder what's wrong. Then my father told me that this boy (10 y/o), would play with the "pet" until it gets weak, it'd cry and even run away from him, but of course, he'd catch up. And the fish, oh the fish, he will keep on catching the fish, you know catch and release? something like that, then the next day, it's not surprising that the fish is not there anymore. He does the same with my uncle and father's doves. My father caught him red handed poking the bird cages with a long stick. And also, my other uncle has a big aquarium, and this boy would climb up using a stool with a fish net, will try catching the fish inside when nobody is looking. I guess the blame would be on his father. His father knew what this boy is doing but still, he buy him these animals for a "pet". But I guess, they're both sick.

My first

as of today, I'm trying to get used to punch in my "Break-out" and "Break-in" here in the office. I'm not sure, but, I estimated my "late" "break-in's" for more than two hours. I don't know how much deduction would that cost in my payroll. Anyway, seems like I don't care, but really, I don't care. Hahaha. My officemates would often remind me my break in but then, I still forget. So today, 40 minutes before my break ends, I already punched my "break-in" to be safe. They have given me my break time already, but my schedule is very vague. I'll be free an hour before my break, tendency is, I'll eat lunch one hour earlier. After eating, I'd forget about my break time and then, voila! I'll just punch in my late break in again. The truth is, I've been working for this company for almost two years now, but I've never done this ever since. Yes, there was a break in and out but it wasn't that strictly implemented then compared to now. There is a posted reminder on the bulletin about deduction in late breaks that's why I should be careful now if I want to get my salary full. My friend told me to punch my break out on time and after twenty minutes, 40minutes earlier, I can punch my break in already. I was like, "Really?!" and yeah, that's what I'm doing now, so I won't forget. Thanks to my friend. Well, that's what she's doing, too. So, I'm safe! :D